Sunday, August 29, 2010

Quarter-Life Crisis

I have to admit, I'm kind of freaking out right now.  Jordan thinks I'm weird, but whatever, I can't help it.  I suppose it's a quarter-life crisis instead of a mid-life crisis.  I had already been having a hard time dealing with turning 25 and coming to terms with that. I mean, in 2 years I'll be a doctor... that's serious. And scary. And terrifying. And awesome. Anyways, back to my freak out.  It's been really weird to have people I've known since middle school getting pregnant, but I've reached my limit.  In the last 24 hours two of my very best friends have called to tell me they are pregnant! 

First was Kelcy.  We have been friends since we were in our mommies' tummies, and I am more than elated for her.  I even cried when she told me (I know... I'm getting sappy in my old age).  I'm just so happy for her and her husband, who I have also known since baby-hood.  She is a nanny and has been wanting a baby for some time now, so I knew it was coming soon.  I could hear it in her voice when she left me a voicemail, but still, it's very big news.  It's kind of like going through an entire cycle of life with her, if that makes sense.  We knew each other since we were born, and now here she is, about to have a baby.  Maybe she'll have another one when I'm (finally) ready to.  That would be fun.

Anywho, I thought one best friend was enough, but apparently not.  Today after church I got a picture text from my college roommate, Jill, of 3 positive pregnancy tests.  WHAT?!?!  I could not believe it.  I'm still having a hard time.  I don't know why I'm so upset, but I am.  Don't get me wrong, I am ecstatic for Jill and Matt.  Maybe 'upset' isn't the right word, it's too negative.  I don't really know what I am... I do know that I was surprised at Jill's message, and LOVED hearing her excitement when I called her.  She's adorable and can't wait for her new adventure.  It will be so much fun watching her as a mom because she is probably the nicest, most pure-hearted people I know. 

Jill and Kelcy will both be AMAZING moms, and I can't wait to be auntie Maegan, but jeez.  Jordan thinks it is because I want a baby, but let me assure you, it's not.  You know how people say "there must be something in the water" ?  Well, I'm drinking bottled water... I'm not taking any chances. 

I expect beautiful Ali will be calling me any day now, too.  I'm sure she and her hubby are trying since apparently everyone else is.  Ridiculous. 

So now, as you can see, I am alone in the married group of my bridesmaids. 
Even though I am feeling very confused and old, I am also overjoyed for Kelcy and Jill.  I'm proud of the women they have become, and can't wait to meet their beautiful babies. 
What a wonderful gift God has given them! 

2 comments:

Jill said...

that is exciting for your friends!

i think it's just the time of life you're in. except when i was 25 i was still single and everyone i knew was married and some were having babies and i felt like everything was passing me by.

you can't really focus on babies because you are so deep into becoming a dentist so it might just seem surreal. i'll bet if you had already been working for 2 years, you and jordy would be ready. i know that in about three years i'm going to start bugging you about having one :) i'll need a new niece or nephew to hold and spoil.

Jaime said...

The time will come soon enough and you don't ever get to be a newly wed again!!! So...enjoy that phase for as long as you can make it last. I am totally rolling at that last picture. You are so funny!